I walked by the ending of this track today. It was strange. The end seemed so abrupt. I thought, why here? Why now? Then my mind began to reminisce through some of the endings in my life. Some endings were a welcome relief; even celebrations full of joy. Others were filled with pain, long suffering, avoidance, and resistance.
I am reminded that endings are unavoidable and inevitable. Trying to control them is an illusion. What I have control over is my relationship to the end. I can control my response by being mindful of my emotions. I can allow myself to grow into acceptance through the path of compassion and love. Clinging, gripping, trying in vain to prolong or contain the joyful-present moment only serves to strangle it. What if this is as good as it gets? What if I never have this again? I can never let this end. But it does. Of course the opposite is true as well. When will the end come? I can not suffer like this anymore. Despair, avoidance, or a hyper focus on needing an ending only causes deeper suffering. How can I befriend the despair of needing this moment to end, until it does? Can I grow into a compassionate relationship with this suffering? Perhaps an end will bring relief, perhaps it won’t.
All things end. With the right tools, I can choose how to respond.